I fell in love with a straight guy

Dear Brian,
I'm a 38-year-old divorced man, and for the last 10 years have had contact only with males. I had two serious relationships. Both ended because of my alcohol drinking. Now I haven't had a drink in five years. For more than five years, I couldn't make good connections again. Most of the time I was depressed, having no wish to go out to meet a man. But that phase ended this spring. I go out, have contacts, and now I'd be very happy to meet a person to love. My problem is this: I fell in love with a straight guy. We are good friends, we meet every day. He knows me but doesn't bother to say hi, even when we were kissing and touching twice. But afterwords we agreed to stay friends, because he prefers girls. I'm patient enough, but when he's next to me I always feel very warm. I never miss a chance to look at him in "the way." He feels it, smiles, but never comments on my actions. What do you think?
- goldencar

Dear goldencar,
Having been out of the dating scene for five years, you may have rushed into this situation to make up for lost time. A straight guy is not going to satisfy you, assuming you want him to reciprocate. But then again, if you "were kissing and touching twice," I would question whether or not he's straight. Even though he doesn't say much about your flirtatious behavior, the fact that he smiles in response suggests he may have more interest than he's willing to admit to. At the least, he seems to be bisexual. You don't say under what circumstances you see him every day (work?), but unless he gives in to whatever attraction he may feel for you, you should probably move on and try to avoid such frequent contact with him. It's been said that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but it also lets the heart cool off and sometimes forget.

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